Weekly Weigh In, 01/19/2012

You may notice this post isn't exactly a weekly weigh in, and there will be none for this week. Last Tuesday, I came face to face with the reality of "would I" or "wouldn't I" follow through with my ultimate goal of extreme self care; would I treat myself with the respect, caring and love that I deserve and take care of my medical needs.

As I was faced with this dilemma I couldn't help but think of the irony that just weeks prior I publicly proclaimed to the internet that I would indeed take care of me!

I have suffered from gallbladder attacks off and on now for 12-15 years and I thought I had "beaten them" so to speak; mostly because I hadn't had an attack for several years. Well apparently I hadn't beaten them as I was in the midst of a weeklong mild attack. As I sat in the doctor offices trying to list out the pro's and con's to available solutions I could literally hear the fates/guardian angels laugh at me yet again in trying to find a way to wiggle out justify not having surgery.

In the end I finally chose to do the surgery and am now home recovering. I am beside myself really that I let myself live with such chronic pain and inflammation for years just because of my fears.  

I will leave you with the words my surgeon told my son; wow your mom had one of the worst gallbladders I have ever seen (my surgeon is still young so she hasn't seen THAT many gallbladders, ok!), surgery time was doubled, we almost went to open surgery but didn’t, we pulled at least 3 gallstones the size of golf balls out so her scars are going to be bigger than we talked about, but all in all... YOUR MOM TOOK IT LIKE A CHAMP!

I took it like a champ, eh?

So are there any medical needs you've been putting off and need to take care of?

“Without health life is not life; it is only a state of languor and suffering – an image of death” ~ Buddha